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July 2003

Notes :

I filled the cone of the waterpipe and tuned off the lights. The only light in the room now was from my clock and VCR. I raised the jet flame to the cone inhaling the smoke as it bubbled up through the water. I placed the pipe down on the bedside table and pulled the covers of the bed up and over me.

I felt the pressure of the bed covers against my body suddenly feel as if I was being wrapped in hundreds of ribbons all circulating around my body. Not static like a mummy is wrapped but with the ribbons endlessly circling as if floating in space around me.

The next thing I was aware of I was in a standing position in the window of a church building with the sun shining through and down onto me. I knew this place, It was the St Paul’s cathedral in Flinders Street Melbourne. I was facing south. The scenery was not of today however it was about at least ten years ago. There has been some redevelopment there since then but in my vision it was how it used to be.

I was only there for a few seconds when I had a realisation that I was in the middle of a "trip". I thought "hey why don’t I take this trip to somewhere I want to go" and began as if walking to head off to a destination of my choosing. It was at this moment I felt as if I was grabbed by the back of the neck and dragged backwards and upwards into a dark void of "nothing".

In the dark void I "knew" I had made an error. I sensed this in a way that was almost a conversation with someone. It was like I had been told "I had prepared a vision for you and you have blown it!" I wanted to go back to the window in the street and try again but again I was "told", "No, too late, you blew it, you had your chance and you wasted that so you may as well wake up".

I began to sense myself in my bed again and came back to myself from the dizzy feeling. I felt like I was a little boy who had just had my backside smacked really hard by the Lady of the Sage. Having just been scolded for exploiting Sage and trying to have fun with her, I swore to myself that I would never try to take control during a Salvia experience again.

Feeling like a naughty boy sent to bed as discipline, I rolled over and went to sleep (a totally relaxing sleep).

As I inhaled the second cone I had just enough time to put the pipe down and lay back onto the bed.

As I began to lift my legs up, first my right leg then my left, I felt as if the action of them lifting created "echo’s" or ripples through space. It was another instant and I felt as if I was lying on the ground, outside in bright sunlight, with a brick wall to my right. I remember it was here that I had the thought "why did I do this naked?" as I felt all exposed, as if other people were looking at me naked.

The next moment I was far out in space on a plane as if the grids on a star map existed and I was standing on that plane, as if I was massive in proportion. I only have a broken memory of this zone, images of plastic toys, as if this was some sort of children’s nursery. My final memory from here was a strange little character that appeared like a little toy, almost elf like. But the expression on its face did not give away its true self. It was a sort of smile but not really a friendly one, nor evil but a smile in between. He was walking in a straight line through the "universe" pushing something like a lawnmower, I can’t remember what it was exactly. But as he pushed it along, leaving a straight line behind, the area to the right of the line disintegrated into nothingness. He didn’t seem to know that he was causing this destruction to a large part of the universe. He continued on as if he was running a pre programmed task, walking along a straight line through the universe pushing along a "line marker" effectively cutting it in two.

I remember becoming worried by this as he was about to intersect an area that felt important to me. I was in the process of telling "somebody" that we had to do something about this "fact" when, while doing so, I could see my real bedroom as if looking through a portal in space into my room. This sight reminded me who I was and I began to pass back through the membrane and into my body.

Coming back was very different this time. I was laying on my back physically but I can remember feeling as if I was entering by coming down onto me in a crawling position then on laying on top then into me I rolled over until I was laying on my back to match my body. It was while rolling over at about the halfway over point that I remember a thought that even though felt like my own was as if it was not mine but another "persons" that was sort of like "I do not know this person I am entering" it then received a reply that was like a reassurance, "don’t worry all the memories will be yours too, soon."

For a few minutes after I felt I had come back I was still a little affected, my vision had not yet returned properly. The scary part is either had my memories. I still felt as if I was an invader, like I had possessed myself, but at the same time thought that I was being silly "I am I" slowly my life began to be mine for real and felt fully like I had always been me.

The strangest thing about feeling like I have "possessed myself" is that the afterglow over the next few days echoed that theme. Kind of like a realisation of all my dreams and goals as something I can achieve and I am the "one" to do it (fulfil my dreams). To put it another way, say you suddenly found yourself inside someone else and "knowing" what they didn’t know, was able to see anything that was a block and a way around it or an unseen road to fulfil their wants out of life. Like we seem to be able to do well when looking from the outside. I have since felt an even greater thirst to enjoy living as I now have a much clearer vision of the path I am choosing to walk.

2nd August 2003

A few seconds after inhaling my cone I was in familiar Salviaspace again.
It was a kinder garden / children’s playground. I was one of a few adults (who, I don’t remember) There the kids were playing and the feeling was FUN. All of a sudden a plasma like wall that sort of looked like a waterfall extending from horizon to horizon appeared and began moving towards us. Us adults instantly saw this as a threat to our safety and I was very worried about getting the children out of its path and to safety.

As we were in an area that was fenced or bounded by walls of a building we had run out of options of were to save the children. It was a high stress moment and I remember we only had a tiny space left between the walls and the plasma.

Next the plasma has caught me and I am being tossed around at its face as if in a tornado. I feel defeated I failed. I am now seeing Mawk’s face through the whirl of the tornado plasma and sense that he is OK. I ask him "are you OK?" and he starts to laugh forever, like a mad man. I guess he is all right but wonder why he laughs. I then realise I am in my lounge room and that I have left my seat and crawled ½ way across the room. - I am back in 3D

Remembers smoking -=[blank]=- remembers laughing but not what at.

(Swampy and I think he remembers more but was a bit too freaked to admit what he saw)

He too said he saw the playground, the children and was aware of both Mawk’s and Shaymans presence also, but no plasma wall. He recalls seeing me sitting opposite but not the brick wall behind me. In place of the wall was a large Black Cloud so thick he could not see through it, and it was coming down towards me. He sensed it was evil but somehow laughed at it. The laughing made the cloud shudder and withdraw. he laughed some more. Next Mawk started laughing too and the black cloud retreated and left the room. While this happened he saw me throw myself over the kids like a protective shield from the cloud and lead them to a tunnel through which they escaped.

{All the laughing stopped}

{We sat looking at each other for a few minutes in silence}

Mawk claimed no memory but looked very unsettled and went home within the hour. Swampy had his usual "That was wild" face (he always handles it really well.) I felt a little depressed and felt I had failed to save the children, I think I was caught in the membrane swirl to soon, and it dragged me away from being able to help.

After Swampy told me what he had seen, my memory of getting the children into the tunnel and then getting caught by the plasma returned, but at the same time a clear memory of failing (both events seemed to have happened) So I felt a lot better and was more excited now that we all had sort of been in the same place together.

Naming Mawk

Before we began our session we decided our dose would be two cones in a row each. We were then going to pass the pipe to the next person, or have them take it from us, and they would then follow until we were all in Salviaspace together (that didn’t happen).

I began the session. I smoked the first cone, delighting the taste of the sweet smoke and held my breath while I packed my second cone. I finished packing and released the smoke as I began to raise the pipe into smoking position. I started to feel the curlation on each side, signalling the beginning of a journey coming on. I said out loud "I don’t think I really need this one." And proceeded to smoke it.

While I was smoking the second cone I witnessed the room’s normal 3D state change and fold around to a single, bubble like plane in front of me, including the wall that I knew was behind me. The pipe that I was now smoking, with difficulty, prevented the whole scene from disappearing. My next awareness was of "people" behind me telling me to hurry up and finish smoking. They gave me the feeling that I didn’t need to smoke any more, I had had enough, and they wanted to go/take me somewhere and "right now". For some reason I remember wanting/needing to continue until I had emptied the cone. (Which I was told I did. I even exclaimed with a slow voice "I shouldn’t have had that one.")

As I pulled the smoke in I felt like the pipe was being pulled away in front of me, and I was being pulled back away from it. The moment I released the pipe it disappeared and the bubble, no longer held back by the pipe, pulled back and away from my thoughts. As I turned to the "people" waiting for me they begun to bag me, in jest, for having the second cone.

The bubble and the room now gone, the scene was very cartoony, bright, and full of colour. There was beings in this place in the form of giant plastic toys (sort of). I don’t remember how long this scene lasted, events, or of any conversations that may have happened. I do know I have seen this scene in Salviaspace before but have never been able to recall enough of it. Perhaps it was in this place, if not soon after I had quite a conversation with some friends that I often visit but never remember well enough to later describe later. (This time I had sitters able to tell me afterwards that I was talking out loud in a strange language. They told me; I held a strange conversation filled with laughter for about a minute and a half while the words fell naturally from my tongue. I then went into laughter until scene #4.)

I also have a very short memory of walking down, or being in a street, or even on the red corrugated rooves of the buildings that lined it (This is not 3D remember) while I had a jovial conversation with a small group.

I have realised now that almost each time I successfully enter Salviaspace, I visit a kind of school. It is there, I learn more of what I will not remember once I return to 3D but will again next time I visit. I now feel that one day I will be able to recall what I am learning there, I hope so anyway.

This scene is a room, white walls, some glass, low light, mostly red light with some lighter colour around some sort of equipment that are against the walls. I am with some people in this room when I sense somebody behind me in the dark. I ask "is there somebody there?" and I receive a cheerful response and shake hands with the stranger. At this stage he was still a red plastic human shaped arm and head coming out of the wall.
I thought he was trying to get into the room through the wall where he was stuck and I;
    a) Proceeded to help by pulling him in.
    b) thinking he was a freddie Kruger like monster pulled his attacking arm in defence.
    c) like b) only I pushed him away, back into the wall.
All of these events happened simultaneously until I began to see Mawk in clear 3D, linier time vision. It was then I realised who I had a hold of and how, and was instantly brought back to normal 3D. My journey was over, the whole time was around 5 minutes. After a few minutes and a short discussion Mawk continued the session having only one cone each.

(My sitters report that I asked the "is there somebody there?" question then shook Mawk’s hand with my right hand and grabbed his arm with my left and said in a slow low voice "Maaaawwwwk*". I then started pulling at him until I came around. If only we had recorded this session.)

*That’s how Mawk got his Salvia Crusader name.